Numb and Glum

Despondent correspondence

Doleful, but without the pineapple

This joylessness is too much

Unendurably bearable, but only barely

Sometimes I find a smile that’s wearable

I don’t feel like finishing this…

But here I am again,

Trying to devise stratagems to trick myself

To outwit the depressed me

Struggling to muster the enthusiasm for the next phase of my day, whatever it is

2:33 AM and wide awake.

Yesterday

I survived it poorly

I talked too much

Drifted through the doldrums

The sound of waves lapping my hull with insanity

As I wiled away in moments of inanity

Made a doctor’s appointment

Got the refund

Did some pushups and ran/walked the beach

Grounded

Each day I need to get better and more positive in the battle for myself and my health

Need to go swimming

Identify the ONE thing I need to do each day for an accomplishment

No social media or alcohol for 90 days

Substitute

Silence

Smiles

Serenity

Simplicity

I need problems that the mind cannot solve alone

I think you’d love me more if you didn’t have to know me every day.

You’d think I was cooler if you didn’t always have to hear what I say.

The morning foreboding

Can I be trusted with another day

I should try to go about it another way

But the traffic cones get placed before I can try

I should just seize the day

“Seize this Honkus!”

JArtB